Writing for the last week has been slow; I don’t have too much motivation to write. Looking at the travel essay I really have not been feeling it but I love the way that Stephanie was trying to peak my interest and get me to make this a good paper. I have to admit that the first copy sucked and was put together really fast cause it needed to be done but for sure I will take more time on it and try to produce what is wanted for the paper. Otherwise with my other writing it’s really been put on hold lately cause I just got a job at good year and it takes most of my time. The rest of the time that I have goes to my girl so time has gotten tight lately but you don’t see me crying.

People who should Die

I was talking to one of my friends the other day and she told me a story that shocked, angered and saddened me. She told me the story of one of her ex boyfriends. Apparently he was a terrible person that was abusive; sick minded and belonged in hell. She had dated him back when she was in high school and he used to beat her to the point where she couldn’t were anything other than long sleeve shirts because her wrists were so bruised. These beating scared her mentally to the point where she will no longer feels comfortable for people to touch her neck or even have a collar on a shirt to touch it. She told me that she was forcefully engaged to him and he told her that if she ever left him he would kill her. She was afraid for her life to leave him because of these threats. I was told that he had even molested a Young teen girl during the time that they were together. Luckily she was able to break away from him and get a restraining order. As she was telling me about this I was horrified at what she told me and it made me want to cry because no one should ever have to live through these things that happened to her. I wondered as she told me “How could anyone stay with a person like this?” but I knew the answer the whole time, Fear. This story reminded me that fear is a strong emotion that can make you do the opposite of what you know is right. No one should ever have to live in fear or ever be treated in such a way. I was also told that this fucker had gotten away with everything he did even the molestation. Apparently he never did any real hard time. Anybody that decides to treat another person in any alike way should be dead. No question. This makes me lose faith in the justice system if this piece of shit is still roaming the streets. This fucker needs to be put to a painful torturous death. Its things like this that hell exists for.

writing progression

As I reflect on my recent writings I feel that I have improved on the feeling that I put into it and all the thought that I have been using. Recently I have been able to understand and feel the words and music of Nine Inch Nails’ Pretty Hate Machine. Because of this I am looking at these techno stylized metal songs and giving them a flavor with non computer generated instruments (though some parts were originally recorded with real instruments). I focus on the emotion that is presented in the lyrics with the way that they are spoken and try to emphasize the parts that I feel need emotion from me. On the song Sanctified I use my bass guitar only focusing on the vibe that it presents vs. the guitar and try to compensate with my vocals the best I can. Most of the lines in this song are repetitive so I try to ad a difference where it can be used to break the consistency. I really try to focus on the emotion and vibe placed in the song for the presentation to project what I feel on those who listen to it. I also was writing lines for a new poem that focused on my occasional spontaneous depression that lasts only a few days or so. I focused on exactly what I was feeling and turned these feeling into words. I tried to use some figurative language in my descriptions of feelings to show how I felt. I’m fine now but I thought capturing this dark piece of my life may produce a good set of lyrics or something to build off of so I could write my own material and be able to project it as I was doing with the Nine Inch Nails songs that I was playing.